His look + His smile

It took
One look
And forever lay out in front of me
One smile
Then I died
Only to be revived by you

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I’m very, very happy today even if I’m totally tired from waking up so early in the morning. Before I can tell you about why I am so happy today, let’s first take a look at the past (so emotional me). Last Monday, we had our first training after having our two weeks vacation last Christmas time. Our commandant told us that we will have our morning training starting Tuesday morning. And we’re like, “Whoa! You have to be here before 5:30 in the morning?! Are you nuts?!” Even if we acted like that (although we supposedly not disagree), we still agreed and woke up too early in the morning. I was like, awake for 4:00 in the morning and have to go out from our house at 5:20 in the morning since my school is not so far away from my house. The first two days were F-U-N although we have to suffer repeatedly pumping everytime our commandant is not satisfied with our work. And imagine, yesterday I was the first one to arrive before 5:30 am is about to come? I’m like that, always early than anybody else. And I have to skip computers to sleep early but I can’t do that. I’m a computer nerd, you know.

Okay, okay.

Why am I a little breathless and a little giddy right now?! The reason is him. Okay, he’s not Patrick (oh my god, I’m writing this on public! Shame on me!). Rather, he’s a little older to me and he also studies at our school. Who is he? Our Core! He’s the one who commands us whenever we have training. The reason I’m happy is because I get to laugh with the others earlier in the training. And get this, I saw him walking on the bridge while I was about to go home! We had this 10-second “eye-to-eye” and I was shock! I was shock because I wasn’t expecting this to happen even if he just looked at me. And I almost forgot, he kept on smiling at me whenever we have training and he always get to my way whenever we’re marching. Aww, I’m really happy when he’s around. But who is he? He’s Derick! Haha, I’m writing this on public, I’m so stupid!

Anyway, I’ll get going now. I’m super happy!


Cath

Sakasama no chou

There are feelings that refuse to become words and
No matter how much a person stretches out their hands
There are places inside people that can’t be reached
Because I love each person's un-voiceable feelings
Even if they don't turn into anything, they will be forever unchanged.

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It’s been a while since I last updated in here. As usual, last holiday was a little hectic since I have to go there and here to cook and clean because relatives come and go like some housefly. I had an enchanting New Year last January 1. My sister and I drank lots of hot chocolates, some ham, palabok (this is a kind of noodles with orange color, shrimps, some cabbages and some pork) and bread. My mom cooked a lot of foods and some of the foods were not eaten by my relatives. I really love the fireworks, lighting up the quiet and blank sky that night. Imagine, I have to endure stupid noisy fireworks just to catch a glimpse of the fountain! But I have to say, I didn’t had an enchanting Christmas last December 25. That day was so ordinary; people flee from house to house. But I enjoyed going to the mall though.

Oh yeah, I just finished Shin Seiki Evangelion and Jigokou Shoujou! Oh my god, Shin Seiki is one of the best anime ever created. My favorite children, Nagisa Kaworu and Ayanami Rei is one the best pairing ever. I must say, the anime is a little psychological and a little confusing, especially whenever Ikari Shinji is depressed (he keeps saying this sentence, “I mustn’t runaway!” in the episodes). The best parts would be the Eva series. Eva Unit 01 is the best Eva series because it became a monster! She ate the Angel in Ep. 21 (correct me if I’m wrong) and she putted the metal-like sheet into her arms and suddenly it became a human arm! That was the scariest episode in anime. And who would forget Ep. 24? Nagisa Kaworu, the fifth children made a 15-minutes cameo there. Sadly, he died because he told Shinji that he’s not the one who should die. The last two episodes are much more confusing since it talks about depression, the past, family and confusing theories about life and death. I must admit, I didn’t understand the ending. Sigh.

Jigokou Shoujou is one intensifying and tear-jerking anime. At first, I thought what kind of anime is this and when I watched the first six episodes, I was like “Whoa, I want to be like Enma Ai!” Enma Ai is the protagonist of the anime. She is the Hell Girl. You’ll never know her history until you watch the last two episodes. Ep. 25 is the best episode since it talks about Ai’s childhood friend whom she also loved, Sentarou. Sentarou is like her big brother but soon though, they were caught into the Mountain God and Ai and her family was forced to be killed in order to offer to the mountain. Sentarou is the one who poured the dirt which he regretted afterwards. I like the ending although it’s kind short. Ai was crying when she destroyed the temple Sentarou created for her. Her heart is still full of hatred of her past. I better watch the second season one of these days!

Well, that’s my ranting today. I’ll update as soon as possible. Jaa na!


Cath