The flavor of life.

When you say thank you to me,
For some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn’t
Get undone even after the good bye.
A hint of bitterness
The flavor of life

And sometimes, risking something to be with that someone is just inevitable. Like stabbing your back repeatedly and letting it bleed for no reason. And the words “thank you” could hurt sometimes and the magical spells that binds us will eventually lose its sparks and no more light can be seen. The memories will also lose its beauty and those cherished moments will be gone forever.

Stuck midpoint between friends and lovers,
Like an un-riped fruit dreaming about the day of harvest
Because of being unable to just move one more step forward
What’s causing this frustration baby

The smell of the blissful summer and the dreams we thought we could fulfilled will eventually be swept away by the cold wind passing through us. The quarrel between the friend and the lover could be a bigger picture than we thought. Colorful sights that we could no longer see; this is the beginning of the end.

Sweet talk and tasteless conversations.
It sparks no interest in me
Even when things do not go the way you want
It doesn’t mean you’ve thrown your life away
When asked ‘what’s wrong?’
I answer ‘it’s nothing’
The smile that disappears after goodbye
It’s unlike me

The bittersweet goodbyes we thought we could finally bid are being said repeatedly as if the autumn pain we thought disappeared a long time ago. Maybe, these sweet nothings could turn to bitter conversations we usually speak about. The coldness of your heart may go away but the stinging pain of love could just get bigger than you know.

The more I wish to believe in you,
For some reason it hurts even more
‘I like you a lot’ instead of ‘I love you’ sounds more like you
The flavor of life. The period when you suddenly remember the scent of someone, you had almost forgotten, I want to be able to openly and honestly cherish the white purity of the falling snow more A future tender and warmer than a diamond, I want to grasp it, in this limited time we have, I want to spend it with you.

The words “I love you” could hurt me more. Spending time with you can somehow ease the pain I’m feeling. Remembering the past will sure paint a smile in my lips and the chilling pain of the present can somehow be tearful. This could be the flavor of life. A hint of bitterness blends well with the sweetness of your smile and the sourness of the pain we felt for the past 4 years. And I agree with this goodbye. And for the last time, I will whisper these words to you; I love you.

When you say thank you to me,
For some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn’t
Get undone even after the good bye.
A hint of bitterness
The flavor of life

The flavor of life.



Cath

Nande, nande?

I’m back – alive and kicking.

Okay, about school. I’m really really happy yesterday when I found out that he’s not my classmate anymore. After spending four years waiting in vain for that guy, finally I decided to get over with my stupid feelings for him. That means, I will finally forget all of the things that we shared and times that we thought we would lost in each other’s stare. However, a part of me is kind of sad. Sad, because I will not able to see him staring at me (I caught him many times staring so deep at me and he even lied to me that he’s just looking at my hair) and some other things that we usually do. However, it’s okay with me and that will be a good method to forget about that guy. Bye bye Patrick Lopez Galvez.

Finally, I have my own Live Journal and it took me 25 minutes to sign up since our internet access is excessively...slow. I was looking for Hana Yori Dango fan fictions and I ended up with this fan fiction site of Maho Chan. I really like the fan fiction entitled “Cherish” and I was laughing head over heels since that story is hilarious. Also, planning to buy the live action series of GTO (Great Teacher Onizuka). This is a Japanese drama. My Goong S DVD at my cabinet is stock there since I’m not in the mood to watch any Korean dramas. Ah, my head is pounding with ache. I haven’t bought any school supplies. Oh men, I’m not excited about this school year and I’m junior. Yes, just two more years and I’ll be in my college life. Cherish the high school life indeed. Uh, HYD 2 Returns screencaps anyone? I’m really dying to see a site filled with HYD 2 Returns screencaps. Oh men, I want HYD.

Anyway, I’m just ranting today since my sister is not here and my older brother is not here. I’m really bored.



Cath

Baka jane.

Just finished watching Gokusen season one and I’m currently watching Gokusen season two. Okay, all I could say to the season two is “not bad” but I don’t really like the actors there. No more Sawada Shin and Yamaguchi Kumiko love team. No more Shinohara-san greeting Yamaguchi-sensei in the crowded street of Shirokin. No more Shirokin students passing by with dread locks, colored hair and confusing dress code that seems to kill people by just staring at them. No more Kawashima-sensei and Fujiyama-sensei talking to Iwamoto-sensei and the others. No more Gokusen season one – only Yankumi is left and her weird head teacher, Kyoto-sensei who never changed his hairstyle since day one. Back to Gokusen season two. I totally judged this drama because I don’t really like Odagiri Ryu and for some reasons, Yabuki Hayato caught my eye. Haha, he’s pretty good-looking and he carries the title of Shin as the “3-D ring leader” and he’s okay, I could say. I judged it until I watched the second episode. But, I was thinking, why is the room 3-D is too far out from the usual rooms of Kurogin Academy? Okay, it’s not like I really really like the drama, but I find it amusing. I’m off watching the episode our tonight. And maybe, I might like this drama.

So, what did happened in my complicated life lately? I’m actually confused about something but I can’t really tell what it is. Schooling will start soon and I haven’t been enrolled and to think that I’m junior this year. Well, I don’t like thinking of it for now since I don’t like my classmate. Hell, I will meet people I seldom talk to everyday and they will give me this ridiculous looks that makes my stomach go round. Nevertheless, I pray on my knees that they will never to stupid things that will make upset. Anyway, I’m also planning to join COCC and for the first time of my life, they will see me in pigtails that is so...bad for me. I’ll try my best not be a stupid dork wandering in our school. Alternatively, so I thought.

I heard that my brother would work overseas so that he could live independently by himself. His undecided life is not decided by his own hard work. I wish him best and I wish good luck! Oh my, it’s super hot in here and I will collapse anytime this day. My head is double in pain because I have headache and my muscle spasm at my back is aching again. Thank god, it’s Sunday today and tomorrow will be Monday! I’m thinking of buying Detective Conan and Bleach DVDs this month so I could stretch my mind without watching any dramas. Chotomate! I also need to buy schoolbooks! I’m really confused about school, life and dramas. Can somebody help me survive the menace that doesn’t make sense?

Hai, hai. Need to go. Happy mother's day! :)



Cath

Whip of love

The weather is good today and I think, it will rain anytime. The glimmering dewdrops of rains are longed by those people who suffer from the heat of the beaming sun. From the everyday work to the seldom seeing each other theme, I really don’t know what to think. Heck, it’s somewhat cold today and I like it that way. And I can’t get enough of saying “Yo!” to all the people in here.

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Today is the birthday of my mom and she never really those “special gatherings” people used to when someone’s birthday is today (?!). And to think that mother’s day is this month. Morning session: not good. My brother didn’t even know that it’s our mother’s birthday today. He asked me:

“Birthday ni mama ngayon?” He asked, while munching a spoonful of rice.

“Yah, it’s mom’s birthday.” I answered thickly, ignoring the cold wind.

And he went eating again. Mom needs to finish something so my brother and I are the ones who cooked lunch and to think that this is the very first time I cooked rice without the help of the rice cooker. He fried the chickens and the fished while I keep on watching him goof around since he’s always have this “happy attitude” towards an object. My mind flew somewhere and I’m always thinking of buying Gokusen DVD, the anime and the manga version. I rolled my eyes and keep on mumbling. Ah, yes. I finished reading “True Confessions: Gokusen” and heck, I was shock in the story. Try going to Kiyasama, look for fan fiction, and click Gokusen. There are also many options in Gokusen. After cooking, we ate and wait for my pop and mom to come back. I’ really tired today. I wanna be an Ojou.

Anyway, happy mothers day to all the beautiful mothers in the whole world. I’m really bored today and I don’t know what to write. Better get going, need to search for some original soundtracks. Konnichiwa to all!



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Random thoughts

I will never forget the first ever Japanese drama I’ve ever watched in my entire life – Gokusen. It was midsummer of 2002 when I first caught a glimpse of Yamaguchi Kumiko, the 23-year-old teacher of the class 3-D. And heck, it’s the first time I saw Matsumoto Jun. the drama was dubbed in Chinese and the subtitles are also Chinese but because I like it, I finished the whole drama without missing one episode. I even watched the re-cap every morning and afternoon. I was addicted to the drama though I didn’t what’s the title (since the channel it was premiered was also in Chinese) but even if it’s like that, I still watched it. And now, 5 years had passed, I was shock when I saw Gokusen being played in GMA from Monday to Friday. I was also shock that it’s dubbed in Filipino (I know, but I don’t like it dubbed in Filipino since I can’t hear the real voice of Yankumi and Shin). This drama is a must-seen drama because I really like the way Shin and Yankumi have this “love connection” and the poke part where Yankumi told Shin baka (baka means stupid in Japanese). Now, I’m currently watching Gokusen for the second time and never stop walking now.

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Just finished watching Hana Yori Dango and Hana Yori Dango 2 Returns. I watched it twice and I even cried twice because of season two. This drama is a must-see drama and in this drama, you will learn that love needs no money and needs no defiance because true love can wait and it can sacrifice life. I’m planning to watch it again for the third time this month. I really like this unlike Meteor Garden (especially the season two). Hana Yori Dango 2 Returns maybe a tearjerker but it still has funny moments unlike Meteor Garden 2 which it too tearjerker that I doesn’t have funny moments anymore. I really like Hana Yori Dango and I wish that there will be a season three. Lol, just kidding.

Who is your all time favorite love team/s in dramas?
San Cai and Dao Ming Tsu
Makino Tsukushi and Domyouji Tsukasa
Shin Chae Gyeong and Lee Shin
Yamaguchi Kumiko and Sawada Shin

Anyway, need to go.



Cath

Hana Yori Dango.

I WANT TO WATCH HANA YORI DANGO. :

Tsukushi looks sad that Tsukasa won't be coming to school the next day.
Tsukushi: Oh, I see...
Tsukasa stares.
Tsukasa: Don't make that face! It's too cute!
Tsukushi (with a sweat drop): Huh?!
Tsukasa: I seriously don't like this! Some obnoxious guy is going to come on to you while I'm not around.
Tsukushi: Ahh... they won't, they won't.
Tsukasa: You'll be bored while I'm not here and you'll be looking for trouble!
Tsukushi: Since when did I get such a horrible reputation?
Tsukasa: It's because you don't realize it that you're so likely to get in a mess!
Tsukushi (with a red face): L... let's cut this out. We're acting like a stupid couple.
Tsukasa: We're a great stupid couple.

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A note is sprawed in the blackboard about Tsukushi having had two abortions. She confronts the F4, who actually didn't have anything to do with it...
Tsukushi: How could I have had an abortion, you morons?!
Tsukushi: I'm still a virgin!(Makino runs away, the F4 are speechless.)
Akira: ...What was that all about?
Sojiro: Meaning unclear.
Tsukasa: (She specifically came here to tell me she's a virgin.)
Tsukasa: (She's saying she belongs to no one.)
Tsukasa: (She wanted me to know that.)
Tsukasa: Perhaps... she's offering her virginity to me.



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