You suck!

Can I trust you?

I am having a fight with my friends. Why? It is their problems, I was like waiting for them to show up yesterday’s recess, and they did not showed up! I stay mum, waiting for them to wave their hands, smile at me and greet me with a hi but I did not received any of it. I do not know what is gotten into their heads. I just snob them and leave all their doubts to me. F that, you know? Earlier, I told myself that I will wait for them and I wait for them for one hour along with my other friends, Rachelle and Katherine. Whatever happens, happens and I am ready to forgive them even if I am hurt. I even told them that plastikan na tayo. And I was like, ready to knuckle their faces off. I mad about it and I hate them for being such numb friends ever since. Oh well, I am on hiatus on being friends with them.

A conversation with him. I never expected him to text me. It happened last Sunday morning, while waiting for my sister to wake up because it is too late that time. Here it goes:
Me: Gandang umaga :)
Him: Morning din po.
Me: Nagtext ka kaninang umaga, ayt?
Him: Nope, madaling araw poh, hindi umaga :)
Ako: Ganun din yun, bakla ka talaga. :) bakit ka nagtext? Wala lang, trip mo lang?
Him: Hindi, xe hindi poh aqoh mka2log kagve eh...
Me: Oohh...bakit naman? :)
Him: Ewan... :(
Me: Ngak. Baka tinatamaan ka ng pagiging insomniac niyan, dude. :O
Him: Anung insomniac? :)
Me: Yung hindi makatulog every night. May sakit akong ganun, lalo na kapag may problems ka.
Him: Oo, parang ganun na nga.
Me: Pero, nakatulog ka naman kahit papano?
Him: Mejo... :O

I am just not in the mood to talk. Ah, earlier we had our recollection and it is all about knowing yourself. Yeah and when I am answering the worksheet, it showed up that I am an introvert and I have a sanguine attitude. How cool is that? Well, I was happy about the results. The recollection was fine so I think I dish out in the confession thingy. Whatever. Okay, need to go na.


Cath

Yay!

To replace your whoever.

Intramurals 2006 is over and the sophomore students won two first runner-ups, one champion (ooohhh yess!) and 1 second runner-up. The entire sophomore students were all cheering and jumping for joy. Some are screaming (I am one of them.) and some are doing the clapping like everybody does, right. The volleyball girls won the champion thingy (what a big surprise, again!) and the volleyball boys won the first runner up thingy. God, supposedly the sophomore students are the real champion in the basketball but due to the foul menace, the three-point shoot was not included. F that, you know? Then, in the cheering competition, we won the second runner up when supposedly we are the real champion. Someone is stopping the music that is why it took 2 minutes to arrange again the steps. F that someone, huh. After that, we also cheered for the freshies and the juniors. All hail to sophomore students!

About my last entry, me and that dude whom I like is okay. He does the first move the day after. He asked me if I see his white wallet, which eventually was stolen by some freaky students in our school. I was numb again to feel him. I told him that I did not see any white wallet in our place. Gosh, he did not found it afterwards. Poor guy, I hope I found it so we could talk again, like what we do everyday. Yeah, and I am missing it all. And so you know, his name is Patrick.

My friends set Alvin and me up in marriage booth. Sheesh, I was so shy to look at him in the eye because he is one of my friends. Yeah, and I only stand in the platform and stay mum for a couple of minutes. He came very late because he was watching the basketball games from the grade school department. He told Albert that just hastens up so he could watch again. We both nodded and just do the ceremony and sign the marriage certificate. I was laughing and I was stupefied about what my friends did. They are so mean to me so I just laughed it off. Grunt, now everyone teases me about calling Alvin honey. Hello?! Are you f....ing with me? However, that it is okay to me. At least, someone tried to get me in the marriage booth for the first time. Lol. Lmfao, I am feeling weird all the time and I do not know what the reason is. Whatever.

Goodbye for now. I am searching for some brushes. Sigh.


Cath

I hate you. >:(

You are just a dream.

[EDIT] Bakit ka ba ganun? Wala ka ba talagang pakiramdam o sadyang manhid ka na? Masyado ka naman. Mahal na kita. Ano pa ba ang gusto mong gawin ko? Wala na akong masabi. Tuyo na ang damdamin at kaluluwa ko. Kailan mo balak kalimutan ang tao na iyan? Kailan mo pa ako papaasahin sa mga bagay-bagay na nauuwi lang naman sa wala. Mahirap ang kalimutan at isipin na wala ka na. Manhid ka na talaga. Naririnig mo pa ba ako? Malamang hindi na. Ganyan ka naman eh. Malalaman mo lang kapag gusto mo ng panibago. Karmahin ka sana. Lumabas na ang tunay mong kulay. Wala ka rin pala. Leche, lalayo na ako. Wala ng paalam. Kakalimutan na kita. [/EDIT]

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I am disappointed about what happened earlier. About this dude whom I have been crushing for like, 3 years from now. He is numb. He does not feel me. My presence is just an air being passed by people whom is talking to him. What will I do? He is my bestfriend. His face has been occupying my mind for almost 3 years and it has not changed for a bit. We are both numb, feeling what we only want to feel. After the feeling, back to the start of just being a strangers. He is killing me slowly and my whole system cannot enhance everything he does. I am such a fool for him, thinking that he will love me back. Yes, my numb feeling is absorbing the bitterness. This feeling will lose somehow by forgetting everything we have shared. I am just going to cherish the special moments I had with him or without him. Why do I live my life alone? Maybe someday you will come true. And I wish that, that someday would be the day I have been dreaming of. You are just a dream.

Goodbye.

Cath

Sophies-ticated.

Go my mighty Sophies!

Tomorrow is the cheering competition and I am soooo excited. I am eager to see the performance of my mighty Sophies, the props, everything! We practiced the whole week and I hope we win. Earlier, we have some practice and finished the pom poms and some other props. I was assigned for the poppers so we will be waving out the banner we made yesterday. Gosh, this event is the biggest event in my school so I am hoping we will win. Yeah, and raise our shoes in the second floor. Hehe! We will have a small parade to give way to the 40th anniversary of our school. God, I am so excited.

Well, earlier my Miss Gonzales told Garnette and me to buy some metallic paper and one black cartolina, which we will use for the props. Stupid me, I lost the money! Yes, and this freaking guy stole. I know he stole it because when I was holding the money, he was smiling and when I looked back, I saw him get something from the Xerox shop and it is the money! Fuck him, he has to die. Yes, karmahin sana siya. Then, we head back again to the school and I had to pay for the materials T_T. Hmp, it is okay but I hope that will die. Yeah, evil me *evil laugh*. After we bought the materials, I explained to Miss Caraig what happened and she told me that guy would experience karma. I smiled and ready myself to make pom poms. Ellaine and I take pictures. Visit my multiply for the pictures. Hehe, yes I am back to photography again and I am very happy about it. Lolz.

Shout outs!

Anna, is it true that someone died in MYX MO! event? By the way, you joined Doks group in multiply. Uy, Doks Manoks. Ate Irish, I love your layout. SioPau, you are back! Gulay, your layout rocks and I love the guitar image there. Where did you get your brushes nga pala? Nuriko, sorry for not telling you about my new URL. I was very to lazy to visit every blogs I know so please bear with me. You can change it now. Ena, happy birthday sis!

That is for now. Catherine is signing out!


Cath

Feeling psychotic.

Cheering competition to be held.

My whole body is all bruised up because of what happened today. We practice for three hours and the practice was...okay. Damn it, I love the cheer dance now because they persevere more and everyone love it (even the third year.) my throat is also aching due to yelling and screaming. We are like talking and talking to fight the boredom. I always hate boredom so a good talk will do. Anyway, the auditorium was freaking scary. The door keeps on swinging even if the windows are closed. There is no wind passing there so I was scared. Yeah, the scaredy me is showing up. Do not blame me because lost spirits haunts my school. What a haunted school.

I am so eager to see our cheer dance! Oh yes, I hope we will win the said competition. Wish us luck because our competitors are so great that I hope we can beat them. Three cheers for sweet revenge! Intramurals will be held on Monday so we are getting ready for the school parade in our place. We will be wearing our school jogging pants on the first day and my trusty tsinelas. Hmm, what top will I wear for intramurals? I am still searching for some shirts in my wardrobe and I am still dizzy.

Well, that is it for now. I am just searching for some chords.


Cath

Magpakailanman...

Oh.my.god.

Yay, an update at last. Hmm, I have been gone like 3 days or what? Yeah, because we are having our semestral exams and I messed up again with my Math exams. Speaking of math, yes I passed...which is 78. Oh yes, however I am still proud that my second grading period finally paid off! And I am off to third grading period, the crucial stage of all stage. I am also hoping that all my grades in my report card will turn to their real grades. I decrease 2 points in Filipino and 1 point in Religion. Also, decrease 1 point in English. What is happening to my grades?! Oh my god, I have to strive hard this third grading to regain my original grades. Yess, just like mopping my face into my books and notebooks. Help me!

Finally, I moved out to the new version of Blogger. I do not know why, but I think this is the right time to move to the new version because the old version does not show my layout. T_T oh god, it is so hot here in our computer room. Sheyt, we still have to practice for the cheering competition next week and the trainer look wasted every time we practice. Back to the blogger version. So, this is the new version? It looks the same but the settings are new though. Anyway, I saw the latest song from Urbandub with the collaboration with Dicta License. Yeah, band artist are there including my ultimate crush Miggy Chavez and Ely Buendia. I wonder why they created that song. Do you have any idea?

My eyes are already tilting backwards and I have not reviewed yet for English and Elective. Tomorrow is another pain in the butt and we will have some practice. Our teachers are killing us. Like, okay they are making us hasten up everything from cheering practice, to music presentation and some financial needs. Oh yeah, being in a catholic school makes a lot of sense in an odd way. Saturday and Sunday is my resting days but I think it will not be a resting day for me. Still have to conduct some report for my Computer project that will be passed on March. Yess, the deadline is like 3 billion kilometers away. Looks like I am doing things in a right way.

Ha! Need to go. Hmm, hi to Anna, Cherry, Ming, Anna M. and the other bloggers out there. To Ate Irish, love your layout! To Peter, kailan ulit tayo makakapag-usap? Pau, miss you sis! Ivy, miss you sis! Macey, congrats! May bago ka ng blog! Anyhoo, bye! :D


Cath

I'm doomed

Tomorrow is our music presentation... I am worried. :

Our release of cards is tomorrow... I am doomed already. :

I have been waking up late in the morning for the past three days and I have been going late to our house due to the practice of yellers for our cheering competition next, next week. Yeah, we will crack our heads where we at. Supposedly, I do not want to be a yeller but because my friend, Sheila wants me to be there, I quickly joined the group. Ha, and I am tired everyday. Definitely, the practice was okay although the cheerleaders repeatedly dance the steps. Arf, I hate repeatedly steps and I rather hate the dance steps. Why? Because, their trainers force the cheerleaders when practice comes. F...that. I hate gay trainers so they suck. Go! Go, go! Go my mighty Sophies (what a corny yell that f... trainer did)! Anyhoo, good luck to our batch!

Yes, my fingers has callous all over due to my guitar lessons. Well, I mean even if it is a self-study, I think I am over due about it. I am frigidly learning how to strum Dulo ng Dila by Pupil. Anyway, I will learn how to strum it anywhere in November. Yeah, and vow to smash my head in my guitar. Hmm, I want to have these for Christmas, plus the time machine I barely need (yeah, right. Who can give me a time machine?):

An album from Hale, Sponge Cola and Chicosci.
New cellphone with accessories.
A digital camera.
A trip to Baguio for the seventh time.
See Pupil and Sponge Cola again in person.

There you have it, a wish list for me to satisfy my whole year. Oh yeah, need to go. My eyes are already tilting back due to looking at the monitor. Yeah.


Cath

Without a fudge, it's only vanilla baby!

I must have you now.

Yeah, it is Sunday today and I am running out of time doing my report about the monggo seeds. And I am breathing hard, looking for the taste of something beautiful (must have?). Yay, we still have to practice for our presentation in our subject in Music. My group and I will imitate the moves from High School Musical because none of my group mates does dancing so we are doomed already. I hope they will all cooperate with me or else I will die with this. I am also looking forward that I will win from the essay writing I joined last, last week. Yess, in my dreams and hope to sleep. The music of the song Must Have by Pupil and Barbie Almalbis is still glued in my brain. I could not stop humming the catchy tunes of that song.

My Christmas-new year-birthday gift:

TIME MACHINE

I know, past is past but I am feeling frigid to what happen for the past years.

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And yes, I invade the mall again yesterday. Have to buy all sorts of things to magazines, to dress, to school supplies. I bought Fudge Magazine and it is the last copy Filbars have so without hesitation, I bought it. It contains also the album that I must have, Rockoustic Mania. Yeah, baby! I was laughing at the interview Fudge made from Pupil. Yeah, it was cool. It also has a poster. Worth the price, I might say. I also purchased Candy, Seventeen and Chalk Magazine. Then, we head straight to the groceries. We like, spent 7,000 bucks just for the groceries. We bought many things like, detergents, food supplies and the likes. I was like, walking back and forth searching what my mom told me. I was freaking dizzy and my feet are already aching due to the walking marathon. After that, we ate dinner in some restaurants there. I also purchased two blouse and some trinkets.

Oh yeah, Pupil is in Candy Magazine doing a Candy challenge. Buy Candy Magazine because the issue is jam-packed! Tomorrow, I again am going to wake up 5:30 am just to take a bath and head straight to school. Classes will start again tomorrow so I will sleep early. Oh, yes. The tons of surprises. Can somebody tell me what are the latest gigs of Pupil this November? I am dying to see them again. It is raining here in Philippines again and it is cold again.

Okay, must ago! I am just going to finish my report.


Cath

I don't know what to say.

3 days to go and there will be classes again, I said after writing some doodles around my green notebook. I was reminiscing some memories about my childhood life that was a bit stupid. Supposedly, I have to write a report about the monggo seeds that is needed for our Monday class next week. I have not a single report about the seed due to my lazy mode. I was pampering myself too much for the past few days kasi that I forgot how to earn money again. I have to earn money next week for the upcoming gig of Hale here. Yep, another pain in the butt. :-P

Anyway, congats to Anna who is now back to blogging bizz. Better, check her site because her layout is so cool. To Pau, who changed her URL. I do not know why she changed it because her site is okay naman. To all bloggers out there, just a big HI to all of you. Kailangan ko ng magbayad ng visit sa inyo. Lolz. Hmm, what else do I want to tell you guys? I am just wondering about it. Yesterday, Yan Yuzon and his brother Yael Yuzon were in Game KNB? However, unfortunately, they did not win. Yan was just goofing there (like his dress but I like more his smile. Cloooouuuuddd 9!)

I want to go the mall, buy some shirts and some pair of jeans, shoes and some things that I can use this month. Hell, I want to have a new pair of Chuck Taylor today and a bar of dark chocolate. I want to go the mall, oh please. And I am dying to eat at Pizza Hut and order my favorite comfort food, chicken and spaghetti and a sumo size red iced tea from Tokyo Tokyo. Talk about luxuries and some pamper me forever things. I want to eat something. Like toasted bread with peanut butter. (Actually, I was eating tons of food earlier but my stomach wants more fuel.). This entry if going nowhere. Anyway, new layout. Wala na talaga akong magawa these days.

Okay, I will hang up for now.


Cath